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update: no, i haven't figured everything out.
Posted: 31.07.2026 | Tags: life updates
So... what happened you may ask? Well, the past week was terrible. Yeah, very terrible. I don't remember when was the last time I was so depressed. I barely did anything, I barely ate anything, I did not clean up anything behind me, I would forgot to walk my dog out, etc. I can continue listing things, of course. I have mental instabilities, therefore I LOVE to overthink (sometimes my predictions come true, and I was right this time). I won't really mention why this happened for the sake of privacy of other people, because I'm still unsure why all of this occurred. It was really weird. But yeah, it was pretty terrible. The good part is that this lasted only a few days, until the party. I was pretty excited for the party, I was really prepared and happy for it. And was it good in the end? Well, it was okay, but we left the party much earlier because of one friend. We were at the party for just an hour and a half. These parties usually last until like 5 in the morning. Therefore, we were just at the beginning. I'm so disappointed because I ended up wasting approximately 5000 dinars on nothing. And the money I wasted was the one I got from my family for my graduation. If I was alone or with other friends, I'd definitely stay until the end, like how I did at other parties. It doesn't matter whether the party sucks or not, I don't want to waste my money. Therefore, from now on, I'll go on parties with different friends.
I vented to other friends about everything that happened that week and I can say that they actually helped me out. Thanks Tijana and Lexi for being patient enough with my language ❤︎. I've felt much better since then as I've trully began to work on myself, including things actually I like and want to do. Since then, I've been also surrounded by people that actually had similar interests with me, therefore I felt more open to others. On Tuesday, I was at a gathering with ambassadors from Wikimedia Serbia and it was really fantastic. We went through a lot of things and had cool conversations. We'll most likely meet again in August. I am also very excited for the events that Wikimedia Serbia will be organising before the end of this year. In November, there will be a HUGE and INTERNATIONAL event in Belgrade, organised by Wikimedia Serbia. The event will connect various volunteers and people with similar interests from Central and Eastern Europe, as well as Central Asia. I am very excited for it and hopefully I'll meet many cool people (Wikipedia people are always cool, therefore I'm pretty sure that the atmosphere will be fantastic). Two days later, I visited my godparents and it was a really cool experience. I'll be coming back there next week to help out with stuff my godfather is doing and listen to more vinyls!
Now, I did lay out a "plan" two blog posts ago. I must admit that I don't know whether I'll stick to it, I'll probably change some things up a bit. I'm not really in the mood to create a zine right now, so I'll do something else. Now, I have a to-do list that I am really proud of and I'll most likely stick to it for the forseeable future. That's it for now. See you in a few days.
th3 4l0n3 but c00l w33k
Posted: 21.07.2026 | Tags: life updates
Hey... so yeah. I'm alone until next Wednesday and it's going to be so boring. :( But, I also sometimes like being alone, sometimes not. My mood on this issue changes every day. Nevertheless, let's see what I have done in the past few days. I started listening to Jamiroquai more frequently, though I must admit I'm kindaaa weird and I play a lot of my songs on repeat, so yeah. I did not listen a lot of their songs, but still, I did spend hours listening only to a couple of their songs. Yay! "No Broke Boys" by Tinashe has also been on my repeat list too. Whenever I go out for a walk in the park, I always take my headphones but I do not play songs on repeat. It is already boring going into circles many times, so why listen songs on repeat during a walk? Regarding the book I'm reading, Marksizam i socijalizam, I'm officially halfway through it. I think that Sunovrat: Kriza liberalne demokratije is going to be the next book I'll read.
Also, Odyssey is out! I'm most likely going to watch it during this week, whether with friends or alone, doesn't matter. I just wanna have fun! Before that though, I'll try to finally watch Obsession. Yes, the film came out two months ago (!) and I didn't watch it yet. It happens sometimes. The new Spiderman film is also coming out on 30 July! Luckily, I've watched all the past ones (starring Tom Holland) so I know the story. Today, I'll also go through Portal (by Valve) again, just because it's a fun game to replay. I've already completed it many times. Then, I'll most likely go through Portal 2 and other modifications of the latter game. I don't really care about the achievements so I'll just do standard replays.
If you've read my past two blog posts, you've also seen that I've talked about creating a zine. Well... I can proudly say that I began my first ZINE today! I don't know when I'll complete it but I'm not really in a rush. I'll try to do it before the end of the month so that I can publish it on 1 August. And for the end, I'm going to a party this weekend with two friends! I'm pretty excited for it and I hope we'll have fun (yes, you'll get updated on this too...). Okay, that's it for now. Bye!
i think that i have figured everything out, maybe
Posted: 16.07.2026 | Tags: thoughts
Just got back home today after a three and a half day trip (see the picture)! It was pretty nice, it's a cute little town. The participants did their job well and I'm proud of them for what they have done. I did update the site a bit while I was there, though nothing too much I must admit. I rather waited to get back home and sit in front of my PC to make any substantial changes (such as writing this blog). Now, where have left off? Oh yeah, I'm supposed to start creating a zine. And I did think of the themes for my first zine: a little bit of politics mixed with video games, music, Wikipedia, personal stuff, and maybe something else(?). I'll look to make it at least 20 pages long. Can't tell if it'll be a tough task, but I'll try to complete it during the next week. I have plenty of free time (and my mom is going to Slovenia) so I'll be smart and plan everything out.
I created a to-do list that I'll update as time goes on. My plan is to work on the zine and polish Gravebolt and finally release it to the public by the end of the month. After that, I'll actually do something that I never imagined to do by myself: create a 3D video games. Not because I want it, but mostly because of my portfolio. I want to have at least one serious 2D and one 3D game. After that, yeah I'll have to look for a job in the video game industry. Will I be successful? Don't know. Maybe. I hope to find a job by the end of the year. A well paid job where my rights will be respected. In the meantime, I'll also try to start a few side gigs to make some money for myself.
For now, my only new hobby will be creating zines, nothing else. I already do too much things and cannot keep up with everything, so I'd rather not burn out by doing many, many things. It's almost midnight and I'm like really hungry (I barely ate anything today) so I'll go have a snack now. Bye!
my plans for the future
Posted: 11.07.2026 | Tags: thoughts
The past few months have been quite stressful, considering that I was finishing up with my thesis. I've graduated last Wednesday and I've been feeling much better and relaxed since then. I'll be going to Sremski Karlovci, a town near Novi Sad, for a short vacation next week, though I'll be volunteering at the same time (see more about the event on the Serbian Wikipedia). I've already kind of planned what I'll do after the vacation, at least what I'll do for the rest of the summer.
While I'll try to maintain my current hobbies (reading, video games, Wikipedia, photography, watching films), I'll also be exploring new interests and activities. One of these activities is creating my own zine, something that I've wanted to do for a long time but never had time or willingness to actually start creating one. I'll be creating one-page zines, as well as longer ones. I already have experience in creating magazines, so I don't think it'll be too hard to create my own zines.
There are also a few more interests that I'd like to start, but I'll share that in the next blog post.
